The Truth

" I might be quiting my job and going to work for my dad in Sydney. You should come with me and live with me. I will look after you and send you to school. It will be great "

I knew that one day he would leave this shit hole and those words was what i have been waiting for. I never thought he would say it. I never thought he wanted me to be with him. It was only a dream to me but it came true. But every good thing comes to a bad ending.

" You shouldn't love me. You can and should find someone better then me "

BANG!!! like a bullet to my heart. He doesn't understand that there is nobody better then him. he doesn't no how much he makes me happy, makes me laugh or makes me smile. He doesn't no how sad and depressed he makes me as well. That sounds like a bad thing but its not. He makes me sad cause i love everything about him. Me n him are so alike. Maybe that's a bad thing. Maybe i should find some1 who hates everything i like. I don't know anymore I'm to confused. These days its hard to find a good guy. They only want to see you tits or have sex with you and then piss you off like your nothing. Nothing.... that's how i feel right now.
Bashed, cheated, used, and just about raped. That's what has happened to me every time i found love. Bad luck ey?
Ever since i was a little girl i would read fairy tails and think I'm a princess waiting for my prince to come and save me. I knew what i wanted my prince to be like. Kind, understanding, funny, charming, cute, has a mean side and loves me for who i am but not what i look like. He was all of that and more. Since he was everything i wanted i was to afraid to met him. He would be like:

" we have to go camping, under the stars, fishing, you in my arms "

And i would be like sorry got work. I was scared he would judge me since I'm not pretty and then we would never talk again. But look what i have done. Me and my big mouth just told him that i like him. Now its weired and i have fucked up. I think it would be better if he did go without me. Why would anyone want me anyway. Only for sex is about it. For some reason i still really like him.
Some people tell me not to talk to him anymore. Have a big brake and then talk heaps. But would that really fix things up? Some people say fight for him if you love him. They tell me I'm a great chick and that he would be fullish not to like me. I think he would be fullish if he did liked me. But would that also fix things? I tell my good friend Lil that's its over. I try to convince myself that's its over. Jessie find someone else... Jessie he don't like you... Jessie move on but nothing works. Yes i will say I'm love sick but this love sick girls heart has been broken to much that i cant feel it beating anymore.

" your beautiful, we have to met just me and you "

The goods days. -sigh-. Wow i miss them. You couldn't get me off the phone with him. We would talk n talk till the sun comes up. It was so much fun :)... we haven't done that for ages now.
I remember how we first met. Threw Luke. Lil Keisha and me would pretend we are sluts and trick guys. Well Luke added Haydn to the convo and wow he did a great job. He even tricked me by saying he lived next door and he knew my name even tho i changed it haha. We stopped talking and then at random he gave me his number and asked me to text him. So i did and I'm glad i did. we had good convos and i found out heaps about him. His fave colour is blue, his fave number is 7, he works at Fishes, he wasn't to move to Darwin, his best friend is Luke, he is 18 turning 19 on August 12 (something like that) etc.

I guess i have said enough to make anyone go crazy now lol

~Keep Safe~

x~True Love~x

The Meaning Of Love

Hey Guys

Love Love and Love. It seems like everyone is falling in love or falling out of love. But what is love really? Is it the bond between a girl and a boy? Is it the feelings you have? Or is it just a word you say to make other feel good? If you ask random people what they thought love was they would all have different answers. That is because love is different things. Songs, movies. They mostly are about love. It seems like everywhere you go there is either people holding hands, cuddling or kissing. So if people can walk down the street doing all that stuff then why cant this world have love. Its not to hard people. For example... A movie star can be in a love movie and would be kissing a person and they are not even together. But in real life they cant say hello or how are you to a black person or even a hobo. That's what love is. Respect.. accept others.. Peace.. No fighting.. Love!!! It doesn't matter if ur black or white... Thin or fat.. Tall or skinny.. Asian or Aussie or anything. All you have to do is smile and a little hello or help would be good. We are all different in our own way. When its night time why don't you go outside and look at the stars... Ain't they beautiful? But o wait look at that.. They are all different... Some are big some are small.. Some are bright and some are dark. BUT!!! If you think about it.. They are not different at all.. They might look different but they are all gases. That's exactly the same for us. We might look different but we are all human beans... So treat others how you want to be treated cause they are humans like you. That's what love is.

~Keep Safe~

x~True Love~x

Tell Me You Love Me

If i told you, i love you
What would you say?
If i told you, i want you
Would you stay?
If i told you, i want something
Would you steal?
If i told you, im hurt or sad
would you kill?
If you told me, you loved me
My feelings i wont hide.
If u told me, you wanted me
I will be right by your side.
If you told me, you want something
I will get it just for you
If you told me, your hurt or sad
I will kill them i dont care who.
This is how much you mean to me
And no this aint a joke
For you are the one
My caring, loving bloke

~Keep Safe~

x~True Love~x

Im Doing This For You

Hey Guys

Well what can i say? 2day went so fast. As they say, times goes by when your having fun :D

First off today was the day that dad went back to work :(. Its not as sad anymore as my family and i am use to it now since he has done it for years. I still miss him alot. Cant wait till you get back dad xx

A good thing that happened today was that Lil and I went to the gym to get fit. We did a good work out and wow we felt so much better. Gym can be hard work but it was heaps of fun and hope it will get me fit and thinnish. I think the only reason that i am trying to get fit is because of him!! Yes yes i no.. you should never change for a guy. Its not just him its also because i want to. Most of my life i have been worried about my weight and its time to do something about it. Why im also doing it for him is because i am worried about what he will think when he sees me. I guess i just worry alot, but whats wrong with worrying? I say nothing its just who i am and common every1 worries. But why should i worry about what he will think when we meet when we prob wont even meet. Im a very confusing girl haha.

Anyway that's about it for this blog. Had a great day and i hope you did as well.

~Keep Safe~

x~True Love~x

A New Life

Hey Guys

Well this is my first blog.. How awesome!!!!!
My blog page might have some hush/sad/depressing/happy/funny stories to tell you. Just giving u a warning before you read it. :D
Well my name is Jessie and just like any other teenagers i have probs in my life and i think this is a very good way to let it all out.

First off i would like to thank Lilly and Keisha for helping me setting up this blog. Without you guys i would be sitting in a corner of my room going crazy. Thank you, Love you both :D xo

There is only a little to know about me. If u fuck with my friends or family u have to deal with me first. I love them to bits and would do anything for them. I go to SJC in Mildura. Not the best school but its helping me during my life i guess. I have a mum n a dad (durr), a bro and my non blood sis Lilly :) I have a dog called Oscar and i love him to bits. He is apart of my life and if i didn't have him i would be a sad lonely child.

Lil: Fucking hell man what would i do without you. Your always there for me when I'm down, hurt or even had a bad day. I can tell you anything even my deep darkest secret (which you already no ;) ). We are so much alike and wooo we have even got my mum to say that now :D. i am proud to call u my sister no matter what. I can walk down the street yelling out ur name calling you my sister or even stand in front of 1000000 people and call u my sister. We are crazy 2gether and that's what makes it fun. I would be lost without you. Love you sis x

Brad: My Little bro even tho your bigger then me that doesn't mean that ur still not my little bro. At time i just wanna bash the fuck out of you but that doesn't mean i don't love you. You have always been there for me. If someone hurts or treats me bad your the first one to deal with it and I'm glad i have someone always be hide me looking after me. There is times i need you to back off. I do need my freedom and how can i learn from my mistakes when ur always there to stop them. I love you bro and don't forget it. (btw there might be alot of hush things about you in my blog page but don't worry about that :P)

Mum: Mum your my number one. You had to go threw all of that pain just to bring me into this life. Thanks. Even tho things get though at times and we do (like any other mother and daughter) have fights, i still love you with all my heart. I feel really bad that its hard for you to get a job and at times i wonder if its because of us kids. Even tho i know its not I'm kinna glad you don't have a job. You have watched me grow up and have been by my side, not only as a mother but as a friend. If you had a job i believe that our friendship wont be as strong as it is now. You have help me threw this life and i also can tell you everything. Your a great mum n I love you and thanks x

Dad: THE MAN OF THE HOUSE!!! haha. I miss you alot when you go back to WA. You work n work till the sun goes down just so you can support our family. I also can tell you anything as u deal with it in ur own way which seems to work really good :). I worry about you alot dur to when you have something on your mind you don't stop till it is perfect. Its good that you work alot but working to hard is not good for you health. Your jokes make me smile and your cooking teaches me more n more things. Your a great dad and I love you as well. Please keep safe at work. I miss you x

Oscar: Even tho you cant read this or even understand this i thougth since u mean so much to me and your apart of this family i will say something about you. Ever since i was a little girl i have always wanted a dog who i could love and care for. At the ages of 13 (i think) i got great news that i could have a dog. I was sooo happy but the fact that there is so many different kinds of dogs, it seemed hard to find the right one. Me, mum and sometimes Brad we looked n looked for the right puppy. I really wanted a Begal and no other dog would change my mind till the day i met you. You were so little and cute. You hide from the world so scared and didn't want to come out. Joe the owner of your mother n father picked you up and handed you to me. It was like love at first sight. Your eyes, Your ears, everything, i feel in love. You are now 3 years old and still everything about you i love. Im sorry i don't walk you enough or spend heaps of time with you but i will always love you and your always my baby. I love you Oscar. x

Well i guess that's it for my first blog. WOW i didn't no it would be that long. There is alot more i would like to say but it is 4 in the morning haha.

~Keep Safe~

x~True Love~x