Which Way?

I have been really happy this last couple of weeks. I still have my one and only sister, Lil who i would die for and i now have a boy friend, Brad who i would also die for. Its really good to have a guy plus a best friend. Not alot of people have that, but there is also a down side to it. Its hard to chose which way to go. I feel really bad as i lied toBrad to be with Lil. Brad asked me to come to his place and meet the rest of the family and i said yes. Then lil asked me if i would like to go to the mall with her n help pick a gift for my brothers party. i really wanted to meet Brads family but i also really wanted to go to the mall with Lil. i then lied to Brad and told him that i had to go home and work with dad in the yard and that i couldnt go to his place so i could go and spend time with lil. im glad i did cause i had fun :D and i havent been a really good friend to her so i wanna try and be better cause she desurves it, but i feel really bad tho. brad said to me that his friends wanted him to dog me at the dinner thing he took me to and have some drinks with them. i asked brad y didnt you go and he said that he would rather spend time with me then his friends and that im more important then that. it was so sweet but i felt like cryin cause i dogged him but then i think i havent been good friend to lil so im glad i did but then im not.. Its kinna really hard and im glad that lil likes him a little bit... not like didza.. grr.. but it is also kinna hard to talk about things without hurting some1. sometimes i think it was a bad idea to get a guy, but he makes me happy so i dont care what people think. as long as i got my sister and him im all good... but will this turn out bad?