1. My fucking family. Don't get me wrong i love them to bits but they can shit me off so much that i wish to kill myself. Last night my mum n my bro had this huge fight that i ended running away from home. 10 at night alone down the river where there is abos and all those Kinna drunks. No1 cared that i was gone apart from my boyfriend. He wanted to come and pick me up and take me home but he couldn't. Not even my mum cared that i was alone. Prob cause she knows I'm a big girl and wont go far from home. These fights my family have is getting more crazy and shit. I cant stand it any more. I really wanna move away from all this bullshit and everything. Man life is tough in this world when u live alone but its even tougher when ur mum n bro is just about killing each other all ova me :( i hate it i fucking hate it all.
2. Some fucking people don't think be4 they say. Let me ask you a question! Do u no how i feel when u fucking say shit about me? Even tho its a joke but do u really no how it could effect people? At the start i just fucking laughed it off thinking u will get ova it and stop. But no the joke always pops out again. Yes OK i had sex. Yes OK i have done this and that. But fuck me I'm ova that shit and I'm ova u calling me loose or saying anything about me. Not only the sex but everything. I'm sick of being the joker that every1 can laugh and pick on. I have had it all my life and i don't want it any more. Its OK to say things here and there but everyday when u see me. Fuck that's what makes me not wanna tell u anything. Its not like I'm pissed off or mad I'm just saying could u please cut it back. Even if u do it a little. I can take that OK thanks
3. I hate the way i look. I FUCKING HATE IT!! Even tho people say I'm beautiful and all this and i have a boyfriend i still don't like the way i look. I'm sick of being fat, I'm sick of my teeth being all weired, I'm sick of my hair, I'm sick of my big ears. I look in the mirror and i feel like crying. I say to my self how can a guy so hot and kind like a piece of shit like this. I cant see it. Even tho i shouldn't put myself down its just something i do as i worry about what people think of me. I worry alot and sometimes that shits people off which makes me feel bad. I feel like no1 wants me around or that i don't help them when they r so sad. I feel like i have lost one of my REALLY good friend to some1 else. Its prob my fault anyway as it always is.
4. I have this really fucked up uncial that has not only fucked up my family's life but my Nana's life and alot of other people. He fucking takes dope and takes money from every1. He has to live off his mother and make her life hell. He cant fucking keep a simple job or live by him self. He fucking shits me off as he has put so much stress on my dad and mum and others. When i went to see Nana i saw him smoking in the bathroom and trying to make me do some. Fucking hell that's no way to make some1 smoke. He is so fall of crap but that doesn't mean i what him to die. He has been talking about how he wanna kill him self and all that shit. I FUCKING HATE THAT!!! When people say o i wanna kill myself or go and kill yourself. It shits me off so much and i feel like killing them GRRRR even talking about it shits me off so much.
5. I'm so sick of work. Cant any1 work prop in the deli. They r all so slow and bossy and always make me do all the hard work. Even if they have an easy job they still ask me for help. OMG i should be the fucking boss of the deli as the real one cant even keep track of what days people have off and everything. I just about could go to the most awesomeness party on sat as work put me on for that day. I cracked the shits at them and told them i asked it for it off and everything. Lucky i have it off now. I hate the people i have to serve. They can be so fucking rude. I did nothing wrong and this dude complained to the BIG boss that i was treating him badly. Fucking thanks alot man i got in so much shit because of u. Grr
GOOD THINGS!!!!
1. I have the best sister in the world. She is here for me when I'm down and everything. I don't no what i will do if we never met. Hmm i don't even like thinking that shit as i would prop be a sad teen without her. i love u sis and don't forget that. xxoo
2 I have the most handsome, kindest boyfriend ever. I fucking love him to death. He treats me so well and looks after me as i was his daughter and he was the father. All the other guys that have fucked around and been so crap to me, i thought i could never find my prince. But i have found him and I'm so glad. U mean heaps to me. if i didn't have you or my sis i would be dead. prop at the bottom of the sea. You to are like a family and a lover to me. I love u xxxx
3. I love my family. They do look out of me and all that. They also mean alot to me and if they die i would go and die with them as they watched me grown into this world and they should see me die. I respect you all and i love you all xxx
4. My lovable dog Oscar. Your like a son to me that i can cuddle and kiss and watch grow. I really wanted a dog but non of the dogs i looked at i liked. Not even ur brothers and sisters. Only you i feel in love with and love still. I'm so glad i have you, I love u Oscar xxx
5. I got my L's WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO even tho i have been driving with out them but i still glad i got them.. WOOOOOOOOO Watch out every1 GET OFF THE ROAD BAHAHAHAHHA!!
Anyway that's about it. Please tell me y I'm fucked up.
~Keep Safe~
x~ True Love ~x
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